Training Log: Entry 79
Push-ups suffered due to paranoia about shoulder. Only did 80 before stopping. Still felt a good burn.
Bulking is psychologically taxing. Hard to eat so much without
the cardio. Fear of reverting back to fat state of childhood, but
at least I know I have the will to burn it off this time.
Depression starting to affect training. Losing will to eat and
exercise. Hopefully once Easter passes, it'll be over.
Otherwise, this log may come to an abrupt close.
When you`re feeling down, look at a clown.Or picture me holding a guy dressed up as Santa from behind while my friend Zack worked the body.**True story.
ReplyDeletewow, are you really a UFC fighter, or pride? I wish I had the will to train as much as you do. 200 push-ups? thats so many. Im lucky to get like 60 haha. Well if you have any tips and dont mind sharing them please do. Good luck in your training....
ReplyDeleteI don't fight professionally, just amatuer levels. Thanks for the comments.
ReplyDeleteCC, thanks. Funny image.
What do you normally eat?
ReplyDeleteWeird question, but do you ever eat so much you literally have to try not to barf afterwards? That's what bulking has been like for me especially after breakfast. It's tough (but I guess you said it's just psychologically hard for you, not physically)
ReplyDeleteYou better get over it, I'd hate to see this end
Emevas, I'll give you a big e-hug if you want.
ReplyDeleteJust think, whilst you're out there being depressed, I'm here worrying whether my wang is gonna fall off or not.
=)
Oh, I don't say this often, but fuck, man. Don't let the depression win, you've come a long way. Don't let everything fall apart. Cut the cycle short if you need to, its better than going back to the state you were once in.
ReplyDeleteSeriously, don't give it all up.
Thanks Chris, but it's not the bulking cycle that leading to it. And I'm still in the state I was once in.
ReplyDeleteStill, much appreciated.
You're welcome. Something else leading to the depression, then?
ReplyDeleteYeah, I really, really hate depression.
Same stuff as always man.
ReplyDeleteDamn.
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