Training Log: Entry 2399

SUNDAY 

AM WORKOUT (0315 wake up via alarm)

EVIL EMOM+

Odd minute: 10 95lb thrusters

Even minute: 1 arm alternating 45lb KB swing

20 rounds

Transition immediately to

11 rounds of EMOM workout (described below in notes)

20 standing ab wheels

25 pushdowns

50 pull aparts

POST WORKOUT SHAKE

30 GHRs

10 neck bridges each way

Notes: Had to really fight my self-destructive urges on this one. Woulda been a prime opportunity to blow my brains out on some stupid conditioning workout, but tomorrow is going to be one of the toughest workouts of the cycle and I wanted to use this to prepare for it vs take away from it. Evil EMOM fit the bill. I took it 6 rounds longer, to get 100 thrusters and swings total, and it worked out about right.

After that, I wanted to get in the daily work, and figured I had a good sweat going, so I kept the clock running and would do 5 burpees at the top of every minute followed by either chins, dips or reverse hypers. Got 50,50 and 40 done through 11 rounds.

Got a good sweat going. These mid-intensity workouts tend to be pretty unsatisfying, but it’s taking my vitamins.

Regarding my tough workout tomorrow, I realized how broken my brain is as I was divising my nutritional strategy coming up for it. I was contemplating having a grassfed ribeye steak in the morning vs my ground beef, so I’d have something a little bigger and fattier for energy. It then dawned on me that most people would be thinking “carbs” to get through a workout. Funny the paradigm shift. I may actually break out the carbs for tomorrow depending on how I feel coming off my 12.

Food DOES need to increase. Weight is holding constant, which is at least better than regressing, but gaining needs to continue to occur. Still lots of room for play in that regard: just need discipline. I think breakfast and pre-bed meals are about as big as I should make them, so the next step is to start eating more at dinner.

The body plays tricks on the mind during times like this. I constantly “feel fat” just from all the eating I’m doing, and my guts press up against my skin, but I’ll look at myself in the mirror and just be jacked. In full disclosure, I actually avoid looking at myself in the mirror because I don’t want to f**k with my head through this process, but it’s actually giving me good feedback. They say “listen to your body”, but honestly, f–k that: the body lies. I AM noticing a thickening of my mid-section compared to my waif-like waist I had at the end of my fat loss phase, but that’s also correlating with my strength going up well on all my primary lifts, which works well enough for me. Seems less a result of increased abdominal fat and more food mass in the gut and most likely a return of some lost muscle.

Was driving to work and out of nowhere I wanted to rip the steering wheel off. I then found myself unable to stop smiling, primarily because I haven’t felt that aggression in a quite a while. I keep seeing signs of improvement bouncing back from that low fat phase. Good to see, but also a big learning opportunity on my part.